Thursday, July 30, 2009

Good Grief

Yes, things have not been going well on the health front in our home. It is nothing I am overly concerned with and really am not worried. The issues with me have been going on since January and I have chosen to ignore them rather than going to the doctor about it. I finally got tired of hearing my mom and my boss comment on my weight loss and need to see a doctor and I finally went. I didn't have the money to go and definitely didn't have the money for the test I had to have done, but it's done and now we'll be drowning in debt. I should be getting a bonus at work soon that was supposed to go to new tires for my car (that are desperately needed), but instead will go to the doctor bills and hopefully, magically I will get new tires by winter. If not, I'll need a lot of prayer driving in the snow. The bonus won't cover the total bill so I also added on a new monthly payment to an all ready stretched budget. We will get through this, that's what I have to keep telling myself.

I am not meaning to complain and whine here. I am extremely grateful for people who are worried about me and bring things I don't always see to my attention, but honestly I'd be even more grateful for them to pay for the I am also grateful I have health insurance even though the premiums are high and it's sucking more money away from our income, we have it and too many don't. I am grateful to have life, to breathe every day, spend time with my kids, help to mold and shape them and to have a job to go to every day. This job, although not always ideal and wonderful, isn't the worst one to have and provides the income our family needs while Mike is out of work. I am grateful for my job stability. It is only myself and another girl (who is only part time) so unless our business closes I know I will have a job. This does have a downside which is I am responsible for a lot and am depended upon a lot, whether I am sick or not, the job isn't going to wait.

Although things are not always ideal in my life (whose life is always ideal and perfect?) I always seem to find a way to get a bill paid, have food on the table and clean clothes to wear to work. My kids are happy and healthy (for the most part) and my marriage gets stronger by the day. I cannot begin to tell you how excited I am about the last part. I don't know if I could be doing and going through all of this if our marriage was still where it was 2 months ago. I know there is only one reason that my marriage is on the mend, things aren't as bad as they could be and there always seems to be a way to make that last dollar God. He is amazing and has definitely been carrying me the last couple weeks; I have not had to walk and it's a good thing because I am weary. So, thank you to all who read and comment or e-mail me. It is a welcomed pick me up and when I started blogging 2 years ago I had no idea why, but I did it anyway. Now I know...the great friendships, the encouraging word right when you need it and the venting. My how the venting has helped. Thank you all for listening. There will be happier posts soon, once the big project at work is finished and I have time to sit and type it all out.

On a side note, Taylor took it upon herself Tuesday to cut Callee's hair for me...aye, aye, aye! I'll have to post a picture soon. It's not as bad as it could've been, but Taylor was still in trouble and needs to learn when and how to use scissors and on her sisters hair is unacceptable! I hope you all have a good Thursday and a great weekend if I don't get to blog again before then.


Cheffie-Mom said...

Listening is what bloggy friends are for, right? BTW - You will get the answers to the questions you've been wanting to ask!

Kristi said...

I can't wait to see the hair cutting picture. A little girl's childhood isn't complete without a few of those milestones :)

Kathy said...

I have been reading, just not commenting much. I am glad things seem to be going well in general. This massive financial mess has hit so many people. Around these parts we say "cowgirl up", in a nutshell, if that horse dumps you, just climb right back on. You are one of those gals.... HUGS

Steph said...

Sometimes I wish we lived closer togheter so I could help you out a bit. I am thinking of you! Glad to hear all is going well on the Mrriage front though.