Monday, January 14, 2008

Blah

That is how I feel today.

This weekend went nothing like I had planned and I don't feel like doing any work today even though I need to do some bad. I won't elaborate too much on my weekend, but I will say I did do a lot of thinking and I don't know if my life is what it is or if it's just a fantasy world I try to call reality. I think everything I know as my life has been turned upside down and I don't know if I want to stop and pick up the pieces or keep going and leave them behind.

I hate being an adult sometimes. There are too many decisions and too many second guesses and it's horribly bad when it comes to my kids. I am always afraid I am screwing them up some how instead of helping them along life's path.

Today I want to scream from a mountaintop and then go back to my bed in a dark room alone with the covers drawn over my head and sleep the rest of the day away!

3 comments:

Shana said...

(((HUGS)))

Thought you might need that today. :o) I am only an e-mail away if you want to talk.

my wonderful men... said...

We all have days we want to stay in bed.
What's going on?
I'm here if you want to talk.

AZMom said...

Oh goodness. I've been where you are and there are days I still don't want to be a grown up. I think we all go through it.

Hang in there and big hugs to you!