Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Clarity

Let me clarify my last post. Nothing terrible is going on. I have come to the conclusion after giving it much thought yesterday that I am a self saboteur. I am a person that does not believe I should be happy. I push people away because I can't let them get close and sabotage every relationship I have including friendships. My third resolution for this year is to stop this behavior and really open up to one person. I don't know who that person will be, but I'm willing to bet it will be someone on here because I don't think I'm ready to divulge a lot to my real life friends quite yet. I need to take baby steps.

So now that I've diagnosed myself, I need to also let myself open up a little bit so that I can also start on the therapy I have placed myself on. See, who needs doctors? Unless you want to take some sort of pill to make you better and I don't. I don't like taking pills and I don't remember to take pills so this has never worked for me.

Anyways, thanks for reading my rant yesterday and caring so much and leaving such kind comments. I may take you up on that e-mail offer, who knows!

I hope everyone has a wonderful day!

1 comment:

my wonderful men... said...

You have a lot of bloggy friends that are here for you when you need to talk so just talk and we will listen (read).