Thursday, May 1, 2008

Exhaustion

I didn't realize how mentally exhausting Mike going to school and me really being a single parent throughout the week would be. Our weekends are great, but (this is going to sound horrible) the girls and I have our routines during the week and it's hard to fit him in there on the weekends. I can't wait until this becomes "normal" just like me working did because really, I just want my partner back. I love him beyond words and to not see him, at all and not have the girls see him either is really hard. We have done this for almost 2 years (he worked afternoons and I worked days, but at least the girls got to spend time with him) and I think it's time to be a family again. I dream of that day.

I often wonder, is it worth it? Any of this? You can't take money with you when you go so why stress out about saving? I just don't want any regrets later in life and I all ready am regretting a few things so it really makes me worry.

I hope all of you have a great Thursday. I am so busy at work this week it has really flown by (which I'm grateful for.)

2 comments:

KC said...

Things always have a way of working out like they should.. So hang in there and you will get a life back.. I would say normal life.. but normal is what you make it LOL.. My DH works an hour and a half away from home and when his company has over time we need the money so he takes it.. on days he works over he is gone 15 hours and sleeping 7 or 8.. so there has been many many of time I have felt like a single mom(except for the fact that I don't have to work) but everyone adjust and things start to feel normal again..

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AZMom said...

Oh honey...big hugs to you! It is very hard when our spouses are gone and for you to do this half time spouse thing for 2 years is both admirable and at the same time, emotionally and physically exhausting. I was a single parent for 6 months when DH moved to AZ and I was still back in CO. I know how you feel.

Hang in there. If you need to talk, send me a message with your email and I just won't publish it. :-)