Here is the dilemma. After reading Life with Hannah and Lily I realize I am not alone. Callee has a horrible disposition sometimes (I think she'll start her period any minute) and other times, she is the happiest most cuddly baby around (I indulge this). You would think her zodiac sign is Gemini, but it's not. I love the child to death, but she is starting to wear my patience too thin. I feel horrible because every night I can't stop watching the clock thinking, "Is it bedtime yet?" I am not trying to wish her life away, but I wish for bedtime every. single. day!
Let me give you a little background information. Taylor was such a happy baby all the time. She rarely cried, never through all out tantrums, and in the event she had a minor melt down, you could calmly talk to her. She was a very rational person from a very young age. She talked extremely early and could comprehend what you were telling her. Even today she says many things that makes you ask her, "How old are you," to which she happily replies, "3!" I am not trying to compare my children, but you have to understand where I am coming from instead of saying "It's just her age." It's not just her age, Taylor must have never been 15 months if it's her age. It's her I think! What am I going to do with a 15 month old who, when throwing a fit, will hit, kick, throw something (including herself) and fall out all over. I do time outs with her and she gets up and is fine for a little while and then the saga continues.
Like I said, I am not trying to compare these two, but Callee has always been very unpleasant. Maybe it was the way she was brought into the world, but she literally screamed for 9 1/2 months. I loved her then as I do now, but all too often I would think, "Please just shut up. I can't take it anymore." I hated feeling this way and I hate that I am starting to feel like she is once again defeating me. Anyone who knows me knows that I am not a "lay down and take it" kind of person, so why am I letting a 15 month old kick my butt?
I am asking for any one's advice. If you read and just don't comment if you have something to give, please let me know. I would appreciate it. By the way, notice the photo above? How old is she 15? And below is Dr. Evil, but she is happy here!
2 comments:
Oh, hun I wish I had a black and white, easy answer for you. But please know that I can relate. Caleb has ALWAYS been high maintenance. REALLY HIGH MAINTENANCE!!! Now that he is eight he is getting better. We have struggled with school since preschool (his 1st grade year was Hell) but now that he is in the 3rd grade we are seeing huge a improvement. (Thank God) Just know that you WILL get though this stage, it might not seem like it now, but you will! :o)
Gosh I so know how you feel. My kids are all different and go through these awful stages. 3 was pretty terrible for my son. My oldest daughter is just now hitting the independant stage. But despite how awful they can be, most of the time the grow out of it. At least that is what I am telling myself for my daughter! We had colicky girls and a stubborn 3 year old son. Just stand your ground and make sure she knows you are the mom and you don't let her wal all over you and just think to yourself that this too shall pass. I wish I had better advice for you but all kids are different and not one solution works for all.
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